A Not-So-Cold Winter’s Day

 

I’ve been in a bit of a funk lately. And though it is well into December and I live in the, usually, cold city of New York, I can’t even blame it on freezing weather. Global warming has provided a mild (alarmingly so) winter with temperatures regularly ranging in the high 40’s and mid 50’s all Fall and now today, the first day of Winter. I’m not exactly complaining about this as last year’s polar vortex was the farthest thing from comfortable that I can think of, however there’s also no reason for any of us here to be elated at the fact that global warming’s effects are very real and happening very rapidly…

But it’s not the global warming woes that have me down. It’s just one of those days where you sit and contemplate life and wonder

“what am I meant to do?” and “how am I going to do it?”

Some of life’s biggest questions. And for me, when I can’t come up with the answer automatically I get down. Am I the only one here?

In an effort to break out of the mood I decided to “put on some lipstick and pull myself together” as Liz Taylor would say. There’s no way to figure out what exactly I can offer the world or how I am meant to do it if I don’t start somewhere. I mean, I’ve always loved blogging and have been in the game for about 5-6 years now, more or less, and in that time have started and stopped one too many blogs (I think 3 to be exact not counting this one). So, it’s safe to say that I haven’t been consistent in my path. I mean, the last blog post before this one was months ago even. But not for lack of wanting or even trying, but more so for feeling like I wasn’t “ready” or didn’t have all the resources.

“It’s a terrible thing, I think, in life to wait until you’re ready. I have this feeling now that actually no one is ever ready to do anything. There is almost no such thing as ready. There is only now. And you may as well do it now. Generally speaking, now is as good a time as any.” ― Hugh Laurie

Months later, I’m here pondering the same questions I’ve pondered for years and not feeling much further than I was before. Thanks to a good friend, I had a great pep talk beat into my head today about how I have to start somewhere and put my work out there. No one will think it is great if I don’t. And no one will know what I have to offer if I don’t offer it up. “Do you think successful people just came up with a dream and made it over-night?,” my friend said. ‘Yes,’ was my sassy reply (hey, I was in that mood). My friend laughed but continued to encourage me until finally, I got up and did what I love to do…styling and photography (Thank you, friend).

So here I am, with my pink lipstick on and my Nasty Gal high-heeled booties laced up to get back into this style blog game. Yea, there’s a lot of us out there I know…but comparing myself to them or waiting for my blog to magically boom is not going to help or change anything. All I can do is take it one day at a time with my craft and see what it develops into when I put all the pieces together. As my grandmomma always says,

“Rome wasn’t built in a day.” 

Ciao.